“Easier said than done.”
It just gets harder.
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Tuesday, February 8, 2011 || 6:56 PM
Sigh.
Bad day today. Failed to wake up in the morning to finish my homework and continued sleeping on. What happened to my determination and will to wake up and complete my homework? I used to have it but these days, I just wanted to sleep more. In the end, I slept earlier and woke up late, finding myself rushing out of the house to catch 15 which has timings that fluctuates everyday. What the shit is this right. Damn ridiculous. Arrived at the bus stop early and I was in a mess. Hair not tied and haven even eat breakfast. Annoyed. Thought I would reach school early by catching 15 on time but I arrived in school on the dot today. Like minutes away from being late. Stupid bus so freaking crowded that it didn't even stop to pick up people. Damnittt. The JC1s laaaaa. If not usually got space one man.Grr cant bank on taking 15 le sia.
When I reached school I was sweating and damnn bloody hot. Plus during PE today the weather was like damn sunny. Hotttttttt ttm. And there's bio test nxt week D: siann. I dont wanna fail it again. That day my parents flip through my things and saw my test. Failed it like terribly. 没脸见人 ._. Hais. Need to buck up!! And today Mr Ho lost his temper at us. I feel so bad. Sigh. I was so idiotically hungry for sleep and didnt finish my work. .He couldn't even be bothered with us in class today. He just let us when we talk and do other things. Wake up liling. Stop dissapointing people. Stop dissapoint yourself. Stop dissapointing Mr Ho. Stop dissapointing your parents your everyone. Sigh. Do your best because if you dont you will regret it. So please buck up before its too late and there's no time to save yourself. Treasure the chance to make the best out of everything. When its too late its no use alrdy. Look at your own brother. He's working so damn hard. Why cant you be like him. He's working so hard what the fuck am you're doing. Better wisen up. Okay I just alternated from first person to third person and then first person again lol.
Anyway I feel so vuglar recently. Felt the urge to curse in chem prac today.Think I did curse. I stained my bloody skirt today again. One more fugly spot to add to the collection. seriously, thats what I always do. Stain my damn bloody skirt with all sorts of crap. and then cannot wash off lagi best. There forever. What the hell. Bloody bu shuang. Plus chem practical was faillll today. Dunno what I doing la. Hais. Anyway I think during math lec time pass quite fast. Maybe cos of Mr Ng? Think he quite joker. lol. But well his lecture is going to end tmr. :/
Finally got everything that happened today out. I think I sound damn random and incoherent like im talking and my english is like some crap but heck, I feel better after writing everything out so not giving a damn. Laugh at my english for all you want.I got no more face alrdy. My english like some sai and deepa picked it out and is going to make everyone rewrite my lousy paragraph. I am damn sad. My english sucks D: D: D: Public shaming in class ): ): ): And I totally lost my face in LT5 that dayyyyy. Plus everyone knows my name DAMNNN. I was like blurr when Mr Lau picked on me. Totally gave the wrong answer. So damn paiseh ._. Okay whatever. Move onnnnn!
Sometimes I just feel like putting my phone aside and not caring about anything at all. Things after things after things just keep coming in. ohmyygodddddd. So much to be doneeeee. Argh. Like Im not drowning in hw alrdy!
Tuesday is the only day I have nothing on and can come home early. Its good time wasted on blogging cos its a horrible day and I needed to get everything off my mind. Now that Im done,its time to do my Homeworkkk. Must not procrastinate anymore!
You can't go back. But you can always make new beginnings.
Pause if you must, but don't stop.
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Wednesday, February 2, 2011 || 8:39 PM
Currently listening to- Just A Dream by Nelly.
Love the CNY break! Holidays are awesome.But there's a whole load of homework/catching up/elearning (ewwww) to be done. I'm lagging in some work ); Whatever, I'll enjoy my CNY first. :D I can't wait to see my new baby cousin! So busy recently that I didn't have time to visit him. Bombarded with school and CCA, I'm like constantly feeling tired everyday D: Have been cutting down on my sleep to finish up my work.The competitions are not even round the corner and I'm so tired. I wonder how Imma gonna cope. Bet things will get even more intensive than this. Jiayou!