I'm finally done with my NAPFA yesterday. Have been putting it off 'cos I wasn't feeling well plus the fact that I wasn't ready to face it. I really didn’t want to regret it like I did last year, with that 1 point away from a perfect score. My thighs were aching from the practice jumps I did on Tuesday but I just had to do it yesterday 'cos I didn’t want to do it on tues when we would have chem SPA and friday where the next day is my competition alrdy. I just tahan-ed by applying deep heat and went for the five stations. Am so freaking glad that my efforts actually paid off and I jumped a 190 plus ! :D YAY! Sho happy. Was feeling pretty tired after my 5 stations and I actually still had to carry on with my 2.4 run. There was no way I could do it next week and if not, I wouldn’t be able to do it in the 2 weeks span. With no other choices available, I went for it. The weather was like fucking hot and i just spammed deep heat and ran. Every step I made in the scorching sun was freaking draining and damn tiring. Every step is a conscious effort made to propel myself forward. Felt like giving up too when my friend stopped too. My thighs were aching and the deep heat was wearing off. I just had to tahan and continue on. Its just damn fucking hard. It was probably the most difficult and worst conditions of all my 2.4 runs ever. The sun was really really scorching like mad and I probably turned a shade darker man ._. That was crazy but I was glad I still got a A but I was fucking disappointed with my timing. It was like what?! A freaking 1325. Damn freaking slow you know. Sigh. The last NAPFA of my entire school life with such results is really speechless. I did so much better last year but well, I guess something to be happy about is that I actually managed to secure being an ironwoman! :D YAY. But to be honest I wasn’t feeling particularly overwhelmed with happiness maybe cos I was feeling too tired alrdy. Couldn’t concentrate at all during math lecture cos it started directly after my run finished. Spent the period cooling down and I even went to buy drink in the middle of the lecture lol. But at least I tried to make a conscious effort to listen though nothing much really went in.
^Working on the green route with Coach Li Ting on my right :)While everyone else has already stepped down and is stepping down soon, Im still stuck in the cycle of having CCA so after school we made our way to ClimbAsia. We stopped by at Yoshi to eat. I’ve been eating wayyy too much unhealthy food recently man. At least maybe there’s still CCA to burn it off lol. I would say it was a pretty good training session yesterday. Feeling so tired from completing my NAPFA, I still managed to lead 3 routes and top-roped one route. I’m still really scared about leading man. I always cant stop myself from screaming when I fall. Its like PAISEH ttm. It’s a unfortunate uncontrollable reflex and everyone’s attention would turn to me. Zann even told me that I scared this girl into crying. Like omg why can’t I stop screaming man. Argh. I haven’t been coming for trainings consistently and I think that I really missed out on a lot. I felt pumped and rested for v long sigh. And I actually shocked everyone with my fierce ‘I need to rest’ cos I was feeling pumped and I needed a rest but coach absolutely refused to do so. Lol. I guess everyone saw the fierce side of me yesterday. Couldn’t wait to come down after I reached the top and I commanded coach to ‘let me down now’. Lol!
Proceeded with another 6A route thereafter and it was horrible. It was damn fucking scary. You can only understand the fear when you’re up there, it’s a different story experiencing the fear. Takes loads of guts to actually do it and as usual, I screamed my way down . Sigh GOT TO STOP SCREAMING MAN. I hope to conquer the green route next week. I tried jumping for it again and again and eventually I managed to put my fingers into the jug :D but I couldn’t hold on. Good try nevertheless :) When I was on my way up, I was really tired and wanted to give up before I even reached the overhang. Zann was really encouraging and belayed me safely and securely throughout the time I was attempting the green route :) I was just really really tired but she refused to let me down and so I did my best. I learnt that actually my body could take it. It was my mentality. Its all about my mentality, gotta work on it. But sometimes its just so damn hard. That fear pulling u back you know. Its really fucking scary. Shall try harder next week. Think I was damn vulgar ytd. Need to control myself and my words! Thereafter I headed back up for one more route and we went off :) Tired ttm but it was pretty good training I must say :D Only ate yoguru for dinner yumz! :)
My bag was dammn heavy yesterday they said my skin was red from all the carrying. My bag was like a rock and weighed a ton. Had to carry Nad’s shoe bag and my shoes, my clothes, my climbing equipment and a whole lot of stuff. Damn heavy, Damn xin ku. At least we bused home and I got a seat :D Reached home really late and got a scolding. Sigh. Sadlife93 D:
Woke up this morning aching like fuck all over from all the climbing and NAPFA. Still have the nike run later on. Will probably just run a bit and walk man. Walking is like agony. Thinking if I should invest in the Salonpas spray man, seems good. Life sucks when u ache all over D: Got Chem SPA and ClimbX coming up in the next week. Very nervous for chem spa, don’t wanna screw it up again the way I did last year so imma put in my best effort and make sure I do it right this time. Wondering where we stand after a year, I hope we wouldn’t fare too badly in Climb X. Somemore TJC wall is like
Check out the inclined plane of the wall man, and not to mention the crazy roof. No matter where the route is set its gonna be like damn crazy + scary. Somemore to lead that would be ohmyfuckinggod. I have never climbed the TJ wall before. Need so much xin li zhun bei and confidence to fall and give it your all. Would I be daring enough? I have no idea. And I bet that if I scream I will be SO PAISEH. How to control my screaming!?!?! Damnnn. Later I become famous for screaming ._. Oh wait, I am already >.< Sigh.
Nevermind, I shall just take one step at a time! Jiayou!
