I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

Experience is the name every one gives to their mistakes.

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Hello there. Im just your typical teenager.
I blog to express, not to impress. You can judge me for that, but of course the typical me don't give a damn.
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I think it’s very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not be defined by another person.

It’s better to have nobody, than to have someone who is half there, or doesn’t want to be there.

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“Easier said than done.”

每個人都缺乏什麼我們才會瞬間就不快樂

Saturday, June 18, 2011 || 2:01 PM

I lied.

And you didn't see through it which I kinda expected But it will be a matter of time before it becomes the truth so, I'm not really lying right? okay actually I felt kinda uneasy about lying so I just had to say it out somewhere. I don't like to lie and I'm bad at it but well, thanks for asking :) Even though you wouldn't read this hah.

And Maybe,I broke my promise to you.

But there are no clear lines being drawn to the situation. I'm still hanging on fine and so it probably didnt exactly count right. But be rest assured that I haven't forgotten. I will remember the promise I made to you.

Friday, June 17, 2011 || 7:42 PM

Friday, June 10, 2011 || 6:03 PM

I want to stand as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you can see all the kinds of things you can't see from the centre.

Thursday, June 2, 2011 || 7:29 PM

Some things happened yesterday and I was really angry initially but I guess all that’s left now is disappointment. It isn’t a small matter neither is it lame nor stupid. It wasn't about being petty. It made us, or at least me feel like we weren’t even part of you guys. How could you guys just forget about us just like that?! Its really too much. I'm just really sad over it. Did it even matter at all? Did we even matter? And in the end it was actually him who apologized and he who clarified things. What did you do? Okay, nevermind I’m going to move on, can't be such a petty person hur. I just cant make myself feel the way I used to. It will never be the same again.

I know its like a major year cause im taking olevels, I KNOW. so stop telling me to constantly reminding me and counting down FOR me, cause I KNOW. I’m so sick of people telling me “its an impt year!” “must study hard” “dont slack”. I KNOW. I really try, try to study, but its somehow like my parents are blind whenever i study! you dont say anything when i study, and when im taking a break, having fun, you come round nagging and complaining saying you never see me doing any work. And my dad asks me why i always never ask him for help when im stuck with my amath or whatever. And you start saying abt how my siblings were always asking him for help and he could answer.So what happened just now, just answered your WHY. You get pissed off when i just dont get it, and it makes me feel so stupid ok? I really try to understand but it just wont get in my head. and when you get pissed you start saying about what i MUST NOT do, but i want to know what i MUST. Then when you get pissed, you do everything angrily, resulting in you taking it out on kor or mom. And then it comes back to me cause mom would come back nagging saying she doesnt like to see you angry so i can’t make you angry. BUT ITS NOT LIKE I WANT TO MAKE YOU MAD. So just leave me alone. I’ll get by.

Its PUMPFEST tomorrow. I would be lying if I said I have no expectations of myself. I will just try my best and make sure I leave no regrets. Maybe the last training didn’t end on a good note but this is the last competition that we will all join together as a team. Really hope that it will turn out well tomorrow. I really cannot decide if I were to join NSSCC. I know I want to, but I know I shouldn’t. Furthermore, its going to be a really tough and difficult journey. I’m really tired. I don’t know if I can really manage this. I’m not superwoman, I’m merely human and there is a limit to how much I can work. Not only so, there are other things that I have to deal with and its really really 辛苦 for me. 我的辛苦是无人能了解的。But I guess I’ve been trying to stay strong recently so keep up the good work liling! :)

Sometimes all I want to is to sit at a nice cozy café and chill. Have a chat with my friends or listen to the radio, enjoy the scenery. Long gone are the times for such extravagant relaxation. Not forgetting chatting under the night sky. (Y) And The feeling of listening to old songs that I used to like. Brings back memories. I miss so many things.